I'm feeling very anxious

These days I can't bring myself to blog. I'm fully anxious over many things around me. Well, today I thought I should just write it somewhere and see if it helps.

1. Over the last 2 weeks, was very busy preparing the little ones for the last day of presentation. Finally, last Sunday it's ova. The little ones sang a Ganesha song. They look very cute. My son participated in a drama. He acted as mountain. That's very unlike of Vesshnu. I'm very pleased with his participation. We prepared goodie stuff for the effort by the children. The 'pot-luck' by parents too turn out well. The whole presentation went smoothly.

2. I'm now in midst of preparing my 1st public short course (4 classes in total) from 13th May onwards (every Tues). I'm scared to death as I'm going to do it on my own. Thinking about it already making me nervous. The topic "Hindu Temples outside India"

3. In between preparing for presentation, I also need to work with the syllabus team to come out with next semester's material for teachers. Thank god topics are identified...only compiling material. Deadline: 17th May

4. Vesshnu's SA1 begins next week. Need to give moral support and also help in Science too.

5. Besides all these, I'm also helping the Mitra Counselling group in their syllabus. It suppose to be group effort, but don't seem to be like that now. Thank god, they have requested by end June.

6. On 10th May, I'm graduating. Kind of excited about it and at the same time, anxious about the results. The group results are not out yet.

Everything falls in May..why?why?why? Stressssssssssssss

Okie, I feel better now...after thinking and listing. It helps :-) but not sure how long :-(

Okie, going back to work now.....

Morning Buzz

Very interesting...one of my blogger friend asked this question: why is people in train (MRT) always look very sulky, unhappy especially on Monday morning?

As what I posted whatever we see around us a mirror of us. If I'm unhappy one morning, I will walk out from home with black face and whoever I see in train I will get annoyed and frustrated. A slight hit on my shoulder or even a someone step on toe when you are not in the mood....that's it!!! you will see smoke out of my ears :-)

So again, it's not the people around us. It's us...how we perceive the people around us.

Honestly, it's not easy but when you practise this you will be amazed to see how we see the world around. You may get slight irritation but it will subside fast. I'm still learning but it helps. These days when I get into train, I bring along my number click. I recite some mantra from the time I board Bishan to Dhoby Ghaut. A short walk to NEL, then I will listen to some nice songs till Outram. Finally, in Outram I switch to my favourite radio channel till office. No time to see others but some time to stay focused :-)

The House of 1000 Mirrors,

Interesting.....came across this story after posting this morning......

Japanese folktale
Long ago in a small, far away village, there was place known as the House of 1000 Mirrors.

A small, happy little dog learned of this place and decided to visit. When he arrived, he bounced happily up the stairs to the doorway of the house. He looked through the doorway with his ears lifted high and his tail wagging as fast as it could. To his great surprise, he found himself staring at 1000 other happy little dogs with their tails wagging just as fast as his. He smiled a great smile, and was answered with 1000 great smiles just as warm and friendly. As he left the House, he thought to himself, "This is a wonderful place. I will come back and visit it often."

In this same village, another little dog, who was not quite as happy as the first one, decided to visit the house. He slowly climbed the stairs and hung his head low as he looked into the door. When he saw the 1000 unfriendly looking dogs staring back at him, he growled at them and was horrified to see 1000 little dogs growling back at him. As he left, he thought to himself, "That is a horrible place, and I will never go back there again."

All the faces in the world are mirrors.
What kind of reflections do you see in the faces of the people you meet?

It's been a year

I have been very very busy these few days. Most of my professors are in town. Too many meetings, seminars and talks to arrange. Good news is that they will all dissappear by end of this week and I'll be a free bird for the next 2 weeks..yeah!!!

I had so much to blog but could not find time to shed my thots'. Well, I can proudly say that I have been blogging for the past 1 year....

• I have learn new things through blogging
• Met new friends
• Shared new info while blogging
• Express my emotions through blogging

I must specially thank my beloved friend Ratna who actually showed me how to blog as we were parting around this time last year...phew!!! Time really flies...I left my old place almost a year.

I remember in my 1st blog, I mentioned about my wedding anniversary....it just passed again..another year of bonding.

Every year, every moment there is something we reflect upon...LIFE. Last night my husband asked me an interesting question...."What is life?" I smiled at him and asked why...he said "Life is meaningless" ...hmm interesting right??

"Is life meaningless??" I asked him. He gave me a cool stare..hahaha.

Well, I smiled and said "life is like reflection...what you think at that moment, see at that moment, feel at that moment......that is you". At this moment, you are feeling life is meaningless because some experiences or thoughts made you think like that...nothin' else"

He must have thought I'm some nerd...he continued to stare at me. Okie, I told myself...don't say too much Shan..it will backfire.

So, calmly told him that whatever he is thinking and feeling takes place in the mind through a system called "Brain". If we are objective enough to see what's happening around us and why it particularly happens to "ME"...we will be able to find the answer because "WE HOLD THE KEY TO OUR MIND". I continued....we are all mould by own unique values and believes base on our upbringing through parents, teachers, society, religion and friends. Sometimes we try to impose our values and believes to others because we think it's good for them but it does not work that way. What works for us may not work for other...why? Because individual have their own "ego" including children.

Then I concluded and said "I don't to preach religion and psychology to you because you will start to tease me"....hehehe.

He smiled and said that it makes sense but it is not easy to change. Yes, I agree with him but also told him that change begins from one who wants it. Then you will see the difference :-)

Guess....that will let him ponder about the statement he made.

Coming back...hopefully I'm able to blog the next few days

Lunch time now...cheerio!!